Can You See My Love Buzz? 
Speaking as the stupid with great experience rather be an emasculated, infantile. This note should be pretty easy to understand. Everything I was taught in courses of punk-rock I've been following over the years since my first contact with, say, independence and ethics of the relationship with my environment has proved true. It's been too long since I excitement of listening to or creating music, nor write, nor even by Rock'n'Roll. I feel incredibly guilty. For example, when the lights go out before the concert and hear the cries of the public, I do not affect the way to Freddy Mercury, who seemed delighted that the public love him and adore. Which I admire and envy. In fact I can not deceive you, neither of you. Simply not fair to you or me. Pretend I'm having 100% fun is the worst crime I can imagine. Sometimes I have the feeling that I must sign before taking the stage. I've tried everything so that I do. (And I do, creme Lord, but not enough). I am aware, we have affected many people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. Need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I had as a child. In the last three tours have much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of ours, but nevertheless I can not overcome the frustration, the guilt and empathy towards people. Only good on me, and I think I simply love people too. Therefore, it makes me feel too fucking sad. The typical Pisces sad, sensitive, unappreciative, my God! Why I can not enjoy? I do not know! I have a divine woman, full of ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me of what I used. Full of love and joy, trust everyone she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. That scares me so that I can barely function. I can not bear the thought of Frances becoming the miserable grim, miserable and self-destructive as what I've become. I have everything, everything. And I'm grateful, but since the seven years I hate people in general ... just because people find it easy to relate and have empathy. Comprehensive! Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm an erratic, moody baby. I have the passion. And remember that it is better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love and understanding. Kurt Cobain
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